Thursday, November 4, 2021

Still finding my feet

 

I guess this particular post didn't get published. I had been in a funk & trying hard to scrabble up out of it. Since then I've been doing better, but not without downs as well as ups... 

Also, I've been slowly posting my rough draft of  "Tangent, Anyone?", with the intent of posting a chapter each week. So far, it's been a chapter each month. I guess I'm still finding/fine tuning my new "schedule", which, to be honest, had never been my strong point. Scedules are for getting to class on time at school, & for getting back from breaks on time at work. At home, you do what needs doing, & there is no "schedule"... right? You pivot & lunge from one task to the next; no schedule, except "I'm tired, I'm going to bed". When you wake up, it's time to go again. End of "schedule".

Here's the blog post I was talking about:

I made blackberry cobbler the other evening. It turned out well. I can't find the cookbook that has my usual recipe in it, but instead of being paralyzed by not finding a thing, I looked in another cookbook and found a recipe for cobbler that went together much faster than my old recipe. 

Some times I used to be paralyzed by the not finding of things. Then I gradually learned to move forward any way... "there's always something else that also needs to be done".

I know I'm rambling this morning. I usually am. However, it's been said "shine in your own unique way, so your fellow kind can see your light. That is how you will find 'your tribe'. " 

Lately I've noticed facebeak (I know; whatever) has been sending me "this time last year/10 years ago, you posted this"... and I get to see how awkward I was. I am still awkward. Maybe that's why I have so few friends. I'm ok with that. The few friends I have are my brilliant gems. I wouldn't trade them for the world. They have hearts that spill over with rich generousity. Not constantly; who could do that without burning right out? But consistently. Enough to warm me when I think of them. They are genuine. All of their rough spots are out there in plain sight. I think that's part of the "shine so your tribe can find you" bit. Also, if their rough spots don't bother you, maybe your rough spots won't bother them.  So far I've not been "voted off the island", so I guess it's a safe assumption.

I'm tossing around the idea of  telling you where/how we've been since my first post...but in installments. "Chapter 1; Deryk & I meet & get married - Chapter 2; We move, have a daughter. Chapter 3; we have 2 sons and lots of adventures with all 3 kids. Chapter 4; we leave our home of 19 years; the ODOT saga; Chapter 5; our children grow up. I rarely blog...

You get the idea. 


 

The Next Week (or, What Happened Between Chapter 2 & Chapter 3)

 

I drove home, puzzled.  I took the cooler into the kitchen. I sat at the table and ate half of a sandwich. I put the rest of the sandwiches in the refrigerator. I sat back down and set my head down to think, and fell asleep at the dining table. I think I cried in my sleep, because I woke up wiping my nose on my sleeve.

 

 I noticed the time, and stood up to fix a lunch for myself for work the next day. I found there were already one and a half hoagie sandwiches in the fridge. I felt both the victory of not needing to make a lunch for the next day and the disappointment over my missing friend.

 

“Do you have any idea where she might have gone?”

“Where did you go, when you and Dorothy went for a drive on Saturday?”

“Did Dorothy ever say any thing to you or give you any thing? Any thing that would help us find out where she might have gone?” 

 

I wasn’t able to remember any more than looking at the country side, noticing the trees and some landscaping. I wasn’t sure if we did go for a drive, or if we were going to go for a drive. I assumed the former, since every one who asked me, was assuming that we did.  Every one asked me the same questions, and then asked them again.

 

The manager of the home called me on Monday. I spoke to him after I got home from work.

 

On Tuesday a police detective called me and asked for an interview. I spoke to him after I got off of work. 

 

On Wednesday a private detective hired by Toby and Katy called and asked if we could talk “over a cup of coffee”. We did so after I got off of work. I had tea, not coffee.

Toby and Katy themselves sent a letter. It came to me on Thursday. They asked me the same questions. I replied to them in a letter with the same answers I’d given every one else.

 

 I told each of them the same thing, each time; we went for a drive in the country side. I pointed out the trees and landscaping. Dorothy didn’t give me any thing. She smiled, but never spoke.

 

On Friday I went to the post office and mailed the letter to Toby and Katy. A small package had come in the mail for me. The handwriting was Dorothy’s. I waited until I got home to open it. Inside was an envelope and a key; Dorothy’s key to the Rabbit.

Wednesday, October 20, 2021

 I'm writing a story, and have the rough draft for the first 8 chapters written. Currently, my story is on hiatus while I care for my mother-in-law. That new thing is going well, so far. If you are a care-giver, you have my respect and empathy. If your Loved One is difficult or you care for more than one, my heart goes out to you. In the mean time, here's a "fluffy fiction" (the term is borrowed from a friend) for you to peruse at your leisure. I hope you enjoy reading it as much as I did writing it.

Chapter 2

Dorothy walked around the outside of the garage and lifted the lid of a large wooden box, attached to the garage. Inside was a garden hose. I lifted it out and she took the end and twisted it onto the spigot. Then she lifted out a bucket with sponges and a bottle of “Wash and Wax” in it.  She looked pleased with her stash and said “It helps to keep things in here, out of the sun, but near the spigot. The sun just ruins plastic.” While she ran water into the bucket, she began:

 

 “I grew up in Kansas. After my folks died, I left there and went to a college. That’s where I met Alice. I took her cartography and geography classes, and she took me under her wing, and let me stay at her apartment.  Every summer, we would go exploring together. Neither of us had any family to question where we were going, or what we were doing or when. And Alice certainly didn’t care what any one would think. Back then, women’s travelling alone was unusual.  We eventually decided it would be fun to have our own car. One day Alice drove a new car to our apartment. Alice loved mechanical things, and I loved learning from her. And she had a very clever friend, and between the three of us, we were able to keep Rabbit in fine shape”.

 

Dorothy twisted the brass nozzle and the water stopped. I stood for a moment, not aware that she was waiting for me to pick up the bucket. Dorothy saw the bewilderment in my face and explained; “Well, Rabbit was new to me. I just thought he was a Model T, until I met Alice’s friend. He was so intrigued with mechanical things, and took care to keep Rabbit in working order. He eventually gave up on hat-making altogether.  Any way, Hatter was able to figure out how to incorporate Rabbit into something…well, sturdier.

 

I still stood, puzzled, waiting for Dorothy to make sense of what I was hearing. Dorothy stood waiting for me to pick up the water, and expecting me to understand what she had said. Then I was able to put words to my question.

 

“So, are you talking about Alice from “Alice in Wonderland”?  And THAT Rabbit, and THAT Hatter?”

 

Dorothy beamed and said “Yes, that’s right! So, but, you see… the book is just a story. It didn’t all happen, it’s just ABOUT them. You know? Fiction.” Dorothy held the bucket up for me, and I took it. She pulled the hose along the side of the garage, giving it an expert twist to keep it from kinking as we walked toward the cars. I stumbled along after her, partly from the weight of the water sloshing in the bucket, and partly from the weight of the questions sloshing in my head.

 

Then Dorothy spoke again; “Here. Why don’t you back your car toward the house just a little, and I’ll drive Rabbit forward, so we have room to give him a proper bath?” I smirked at Dorothy’s manner of speaking, as if Rabbit were a person. While we moved our cars, another question formed in my mind, and I decided to ask it; “How do you incorporate a rabbit into a car?”

 

Dorothy grinned and explained; “Rabbit was all watch works; an automaton. He was designed to keep things on schedule. I mean, that’s the short version. It just seemed natural, then, that when Volkswagen introduced their Rabbit, that he should like it. So he’s been content with this form ever since. Oh, but I’m getting ahead of myself! But remember, you asked! So I answered. Now, where was I?”

 

Dorothy twisted the brass nozzle open until a jet stream turned to a strong shower, and she blasted the dust of a decade from the Rabbit.  “Oh, yes! So we would go on trips, exploring and having adventures. We drove every where, exploring places we’d never been before, and some times going back to places that were peculiar and interesting. There were places even locals didn’t know about, because those places weren’t as interesting to them as they were to us. Every year, we would return to the college; she would teach her classes and I would return as a student.

 

“Eventually I married an accountant named Leo, and we’ve had two children; Toby and Katy. Alice went on travelling. She took a sabbatical, in fact, and I had not seen her for a few years. I did get post cards from her, often. I eventually had to keep them in shoe boxes, there were so many.  She always signed them “Aunt Alice”. And then one day, she came back. It was in June, the week before our annual visit to see my in-laws”.

 

 Dorothy walked around the car, methodically blasting the dust first from the roof of the car, then the windows, and then she began walking the other way, being careful to bring the hose back behind her, as she blasted away the dust from the lower half of the car. She continued talking as we worked, each of us washing one side of the car. “Alice had so many fantastic stories. Our children just loved listening to them. Leo didn’t mind how fantastic her stories were, for they kept the children occupied, and he was able to do his accounting in his study, undisturbed.  One morning after breakfast, Alice and I were alone on a walk and Alice asked me if I would like to go on a short trip; just the two of us, for old time’s sake.

 

“Our reasoning would be that the children and their grandparents loved each other, so much, and there were so many fun things to do at the grandparent’s house, with the farm animals, a place to swim, trees to climb, and Leo was on vacation, and the grandparents could help Leo with the children. We discussed this with Leo, and we all thought that since the timing was just right, why not? 

 

“We decided that Alice should come with us, and meet my in-laws. Alice drove her car, and the children took turns with each other between riding in Alice’s car to listen to more of her stories, and riding in ours. My in-laws were happy to meet my “Aunt Alice”, and enjoyed hearing her stories of adventure just about as much as our children did.

 

“Leo mentioned to them that Aunt Alice and I were intending to go on a short trip alone. The in-laws insisted that Aunt Alice stay for a day or two before we left, but Alice insisted that we leave the next morning.  She told every one we’d be back in three days. They made her promise it would be only three days, and it was settled. Aunt Alice and I left the next morning.

 

“After we left, Alice told me that she had been revisiting all of our favorite places, and catching up with all of our old friends. That’s when Alice told me that something had gone wrong. Let’s just call it “deferred maintenance”, for now, and that it was getting out of hand.

 

 “You see, when Alice was telling my family her stories, I knew she was holding back some things that no one else should know. And in her post cards, I could see by how she wrote, compared to the pictures on the post cards, where she really was and whom she was actually visiting. She asked me if I had kept the post cards. When I told her that I had, she said we had to go get them.

 

“When we arrived at our house, Alice parked her car right next to our garage. I went into the house to bring out the boxes of post cards. There were two of them and the second one was almost half full. When I came downstairs, Alice was in the kitchen. She took half of the cards from the half empty box and laid them out on the kitchen table. When she finished, it was a map. That was something I had missed; I didn’t realize until then that she had been sending a map to me one piece at a time.”

 

“A map to where?” I asked Dorothy. She paused before she answered; “Oh, one of the places we had been”. Dorothy picked up the hose and rinsed the top and front of the Rabbit.

 

We continued washing the car. I found myself feeling as if Dorothy was side stepping my question, but I didn’t want to press too hard for answers. I was enjoying the story and wanted to hear as much of it as Dorothy would tell me. I asked her what happened next, and Dorothy resumed her story.

 

 “So, Alice and I visited some of our favorite old haunts, and visited with some old friends, and ran a few errands, you know, finding things that had been misplaced and getting them back to where they belonged,, straightening out a few details here and there, catching up on all the news.  

 

“Any way, true to her word, we were back to my in-laws on the third day. Every one was glad to see us back, and wanted to hear about our trip, and the children were eager to tell us all about their visit with their grandparents. And it was good to see Leo and the children again. I teased Toby and Katy about growing while I was gone. I wasn’t sure if they realized that it was only a tease, they both protested rather noisily about it, until Leo and his parents all laughed. When Alice and I laughed, the children began to laugh, as well. “

 

The Rabbit was finally rid of the brown coat, and was a gleaming white, as if newly painted.  Dorothy stood back and appraised our work. She smiled and said “Yes! Much better!” Dorothy put both sponges back into the bucket and handed it to me. I followed her back around the garage and she said “Just squeeze the sponges out here and dump the bucket” Then Dorothy pulled the hose back into the big wooden box, coiling it as she pulled. She took the bucket and sponges from me, put them and the “Wash and Wax” back into the box and gently dropped the lid shut. “I think we should go in and get out of this heat, don’t you?” She turned to me and I agreed that it was getting rather hot. She opened the passenger door of the Rabbit and reached under the floor mat, then stood up with a key in her hand.

 

“Do you want to bring the rest of our picnic with us? I hope they didn’t clear out the entire pantry before they closed it all up”, Dorothy said as she stepped into the garage. When she returned, she held up a crow bar and a hammer, one in each hand, and I took them. We walked up the stairs and Dorothy gestured to the right of the front door. I gently tapped the crow bar under the sheet of plywood and pried it away. After working my way from the middle to the top, it took less effort to pry the bottom of the sheet away from the door. Who ever had boarded the door shut had only nailed the sides and not the top or bottom.

 

Dorothy stopped me from pulling the plywood entirely away from the door frame, and said “Let’s leave the impression that this is still in tact. What do you say?” I stepped aside and Dorothy took the key from her pocket and unlocked the door. She took a deep breath, and opened it. She looked around as the door swung wide, and smiled. “Every thing is just the way I remember it”, she said. I followed her into the house. We took our time as she looked around. The sunlight came in through the tops of the windows, where the plywood had stopped short of completely covering them. She worked her way through the front room and into the kitchen.  On the kitchen table was a stack of post cards, and an empty shoe box.

 

Dorothy picked up the postcards and put them in the shoe box. I couldn’t see her face, as she turned and walked through a door around the corner, and returned with a broom. She raised the broom to sweep away the webs that were strung from the light to the table, and then dusted the chairs briefly with the broom.

 

“There! That should be sufficient. The rest can wait till later. Go ahead and have a seat! I’ll be right back”. I set the remains of the picnic lunch on the table, and sat down facing the in direction that Dorothy had gone. She returned with a jar of pickles in each hand. She held each one up for my appraisal and said “Carrots and green beans for the rest of our lunch, and pickled apples for dessert. Oh! Don’t worry! They really are sweet”. I had wrinkled my nose, but Dorothy smiled and set them in the middle of the table. The apples had a label on them that said “Eat me”, in neat calligraphy. I read the label out loud and she said “It’s a joke that Alice and I have”.

 

She turned to open a cupboard and took some dishes down for the lunch, and took some silverware from a drawer, and a clean dish cloth from the drawer next to it. She wrapped  the cloth around the lid of the jar to open the carrots and green beans, and set a fork into the jar. I was still looking around at the kitchen, which had windows on two walls. The cupboards were pale yellow, and were built between the windows. There was a hand pump on the side of the sink, which was under one of the windows. The pantry was around the corner of the far left of that wall. The wood fired kitchen oven was on the next wall, to my left. The white enamel gleamed in spite of the dust of nearly a decade.

 

Dorothy set a plate of pickles, salami and bread gently in front of me. I looked up and thanked her, and asked “So, what happened next? You got back to the in-laws, and every thing was fine, then what happened?”

 

Dorothy sat down and opened a strawberry soda pop. She took a sip from the bottle and smiled. “Oh, that’s delicious, every time. This has been such a treat! Well, any way, we went home after our visit, and Aunt Alice stayed for a little while. She always parked her car right next to our garage. Then one morning, she announced that she was retiring from the college, to continue her travels. We all thought it would be nice if she would return to visit us the following year, which she promised she would do.

 

Aunt Alice came back every summer, and we would all go to see my in-laws. Leo asked me if I thought Alice would appreciate a garage for her car built this garage for her car.

 I asked Aunt Alice what she thought, and she said “If you would please. And could it be just exactly where I have been parking my car?” She said it just like that. It was almost an awkward moment, but Leo said that would be just fine. She marked the exact spot, herself. By the time she returned for the third summer, the garage was built.

 

That summer she took me aside and told me that she wanted me to have the car. She explained every thing to me. Then, the evening of the day we arrived at the in-laws, she told every one that she was going to an island to live. They were all so disappointed. Leo wondered out loud what island that would be. Alice didn’t say, but I knew the truth, and kept her secret, right up to this day. The next morning, the two of us drove out to see our old friends, and she stayed with them. I brought the car back, alone.

 

I interrupted; “What island would that be? What was her secret?”

 

Dorothy grinned and promised that she would get to that part, eventually. Then she said Oh! Look at the time! I need to back to the home! I need to get changed!” I offered to go out to my car and get her clothes, and in a moment, I was back.  Dorothy had opened the apples and set some in a small bowl between us, and asked “Dessert?”  I picked one up with my fork and nibbled on it while she ducked around the corner and changed. She continued her story, calling out around the corner;

 

 “After that summer, I would go for a drive, on my own, just for a day or so, to visit Alice.”  (“On a not-an-island, after all”, I offered. Dorothy said “yes”.) “I would eventually go more frequently, while Toby and Katy were at school. I didn’t think any one suspected as much, since Rabbit always got me home again just on time. One day, Leo confided in me that his parents were not too keen on my travelling alone. Every one still thought I’d only go once each year. Gradually, Leo made it known that he wasn’t too keen on it, himself. The children, as they grew older, either had forgotten how much they had enjoyed Aunt Alice’s stories, or had simply adopted their grandparents’ attitude, and maybe they had out grown her stories. All the same, after Leo died, Toby and Katy began to protest my travels, themselves. They had families of their own and had gone to live at their grandparent’s place, which they had inherited. They had converted part of the barn into a house for Katy and her family to live in”.

 

Dorothy came back into the kitchen, wearing her flannel night gown and terrycloth bathrobe, and had her slippers in her hand. She paused; her eyes misted over for a moment, and then she continued; “Those two were so clever and so creative. With the barn converted like that, Katy’s family could live in the barn and Toby’s family could live in the house. I didn’t want to go with them. I wanted to live here. And I suppose they couldn’t fathom the idea of letting me live here alone, and go travelling without them knowing where I was, so they did what they thought was going to work the best.”

 

I had finished an apple, and quietly asked “Should we clean up, before we go?” Dorothy handed the wash cloth she’d gotten from the drawer earlier, and I dusted the crumbs and wiped the pickle juice from the dishes. As I did, Dorothy took the dishes from me and stacked them neatly in the center of the table. Dorothy smiled and quietly said “That’s good enough for now. Maybe we could come back tomorrow. We should go”. Dorothy’s voice and manner were subdued, compared to her bright spirit earlier. As I packed what was left of our picnic into the cooler, Dorothy poured the apples that were left in the bowl back into the jar and put the lid back on. She handed the jar to me and I set it in the bottom of the cooler “The dishes will be fine here, until tomorrow” she said. We walked to the front door. The afternoon sun was turning the kitchen golden as Dorothy pulled the door closed, to lock it. I lightly tapped nails in the plywood back against the door jamb, to give the illusion that it was still nailed shut. It stayed.

 

We walked out to the cars, and Dorothy took the tools from me. She backed the Rabbit back into the garage, and closed the doors. When she got into my car, she took off the socks and shoes and handed them to me. I put her clothes in the trunk next to the cooler. She had her slippers on by the time I got into the car.

 

As we drove away, I admitted to Dorothy that I would need her to guide me back the way we came. Then I told her how much I had enjoyed the day and how much I had enjoyed listening to her story. She smiled and said “I’ve had a wonderful day, too!. I’m glad you wanted to come. Thank you for getting me out of that place. I’ve wanted to see Rabbit again, and I’ve wanted to see our house again. And such a lovely picnic!”

 

I was glad to see Dorothy’s spirit return, and I said “Well, it was even better after we added the pickles to the menu. And I am glad you enjoyed the day.” After that, except for Dorothy reminding me which turns to take, Dorothy chatted with me, pointing out the larger trees and the landscaping at the few houses that dotted the country side. When we entered town, she fell silent. Before long, we were at the home. On our arrival, they came out and helped Dorothy into the wheel chair, and said asked me how our day went. I said that we had a nice drive. Dorothy of course, said nothing. They wheeled her into the home, talking about how good dinner was going to be. I tried to follow them in, but they said “It’s after visiting hours. You can come back tomorrow”. 

 

I said good night to them and drove home. I took the cooler and clothes out of the trunk, and set every thing on the kitchen counter. I pulled the jar of apples out of the cooler and set them on the table. I put the cold packs in the freezer. I did a load of laundry and put Dorothy’s “vacation clothes” in with every thing else. I unpacked the rest of the picnic, including the bananas (“We hadn’t even touched them,” I mused).

 

I nibbled on the pickled apples while looking through Dorothy’s composition book. I was trying to understand the maps. I began reading the parts that I thought I understood.  I read her notes pointing out the larger trees and the landscaping of the few houses that dotted the country side. At the bottom of the last page, Dorothy had written “We need to go for a drive. You ask them for permission before you come to my room. Bring clothes for me and leave them in the car. I wear size 8 shoes.”

 

The washer stopped and I put every thing into the dryer. While I waited for the dryer to finish, I looked through Dorothy’s book again. I nibbled on some more pickled apples (they really were sweet), and I read the parts that made the most sense, and some parts that made no sense. When the dryer finished, I folded Dorothy’s clothes separately, and set them on the counter next to a pair of size 8 shoes. I went to bed, still thinking about the writing and the sketches in the composition book.

 

The next morning was Sunday. I was excited to go see Dorothy. I went down stairs and made a fried egg sandwich while my coffee brewed. Then I pulled two hoagie rolls out of the cupboard and made two big sandwiches, and decided to pack the bananas. I added the cold packs and two bottles of sparkling apple cider. I put the cooler and Dorothy’s composition book and her “vacation clothes” into the back of the car.

 

When I got to the home, I asked at the desk if I could take Dorothy for a drive. I was puzzled by the look on their faces. The same orderly that I had seen every morning that I visited, walked over to me. She said “Dorothy isn’t here”. I asked where she was, and she answered “That’s what we’re trying to find out. It seems she slipped out in the middle of the night.”


Monday, September 13, 2021

Rough Draft "Tangent, Anyone?"

 I'm writing a story, and have the rough draft for the first 8 chapters written. Currently, my story is on hiatus while I care for my mother-in-law. That new thing is going well, so far. If you are a care-giver, you have my respect and empathy. If your Loved One is difficult or you care for more than one, my heart goes out to you. in the mean time, here's a "fluffy fiction" (the term is borrowed from a friend) for you to peruse at your leisure. I hope you enjoy reading it as much as I did writing it.

Chapter 1

 

It’s been a few decades since I’ve seen her last. The first time I’d met her was in a care home, and her name is Dorothy. I remember doing the things they SAID she’d like; brushing her hair, putting her jewelry on, reading to her. All any of that did was put her to sleep. She was bored. She shared a room with two other women, both strapped to their beds. Several times, when I realized that Dorothy had fallen asleep, I would watch the other two women for a little while, before I went home. One of the women had the habit of reaching into the air as if she was picking fruit from a tree, or grapes. Then she would put her thumb into her mouth as if she was eating the fruit only she could see.

 

They also told me that her family had put Dorothy there, and when they visited, they would talk to her as if she was a baby. They asked me to make sure I didn’t do that.  And they also said that if any family came by, that I should leave them alone so they could visit. I made sure I didn’t talk to her as if she was a baby. And the one time that any one came to visit (I guess it was her son), I smiled and let Dorothy know that she had a visitor, and left them alone.

 

They also said that she never talked any more. Well, I got tired of reading her to sleep, brushing her hair until it was nice and she was sleeping, and putting jewelry on her that she didn’t seem to like. So I started talking to her. I talked about my family; about how my dad retired from the military. I told to her about the places we had lived while he was in the military.  I told her about our trips to see relatives every summer, about our pets. One day, I talked about my brother, Joshua. I talked about how Joshua could play different musical instruments and how he loved to play soccer.

 

That day, Dorothy turned her face to me. She asked slowly, and in a clear voice “How old is Joshua?”

 

 

After the first time Dorothy spoke to me, we agreed that I’d come see her more often. She whispered “Bring paper and pencil”.

 

The next day, when she saw me, she waved at me to walk faster. She pointed at the privacy curtain and gestured that I should pull it around. When I had closed the curtain, she whispered “Did you bring…?”

 

I held up a composition book and a pencil case. She smiled hugely and reached for them both and wrote on the first page; “I have a car. We should go get it.” Then she handed an old Reader’s Digest to me, pointed to a story and winked at me. I began reading the story to her and she began writing in her composition book.

 

Each day that I visited, Dorothy wrote and sketched in her book while I read to her. Then she would hand me the book, her face beaming, and whisper “Read it. Read it.”

 

Dorothy’s book was full of maps and written directions, packing lists, descriptions of places, almost like a travel guide. I looked through it every night, trying to make sense of it. 

 

One day she gave the book a hug before she handed it to me. She whispered; “Do you look at it every day?” I told her yes. Her face brightened and she said “Good”.

 

That night, I looked at it, as usual, and at the top of the next page she’d written “We need to go for a drive. Ask the front desk for permission before you come to my room. Bring clothes for me and leave them in the car. I wear size 8 shoes”

 

That night, I slept only moments at a time, it seemed. When I did sleep, maps and lists and diagrams swam before me.

 

The next morning, I went to the thrift store  down the street from where I lived,  and bought a pair of shoes, a pair of spring green drawstring shorts, and a bright pink t-shirt that said “Flamingoes” in even brighter pink and orange stripes. I went back to my place and got a pair of socks out of the dryer (Who has time for laundry, any more?), and stuffed them into a paper bag.

 

From the looks of what Dorothy had written, I was sure that we might be gone long enough to want something to eat. I went to the kitchen, and grabbed a canvas shopping bag, loaf of bread, a package of salami slices and a four pack of strawberry pop. In the last moment, I grabbed the bananas off of the counter, and dropped them in. I stopped before I went out to the car. I thought how nice it would be if the pop was cold. (And the salami)  I opened the hall closet and took the picnic cooler off the top shelf and put the canvas bag in it. Then I took the ice packs from the freezer and dropped them on each side of the canvas bag, and put it in the trunk next to the clothes.

 

Dorothy’s eyes were bright, but she suppressed her smile, for the staff. Only after the orderly said, in her cheeriest voice “It sounds as if you’re going for a drive, Dorothy”, did she smile, and said nothing. They helped her into a wheelchair, and helped her into the car, and I folded the chair and put it behind the passenger seat.

 

“Just be sure she’s back before supper, and have a nice day!” They waved at Dorothy through the window and we drove away. Dorothy waited until we were down the drive and around the corner before she spoke.

 

“Whew! I was on pins and needles all night! I hope they didn’t suspect something, do you think they did?”  I told her I didn’t think so.

 

“Let’s go down to the boat landing. Is there still a restroom there? Oh! Did you bring me any clothes? All they let us wear is pajamas, day in and day out!”  I reassured her that I had brought some clothes for her, and drove to the boat landing.

 

When I pulled the clothes out of the bag, she exclaimed “Flamingoes! Why, I haven’t been there for so long! It was Alice’s idea to go. She wanted to see all the lights.”

 

I reached for the wheelchair and she said “Oh, never mind that. My knees give me a little trouble, but I can still walk. It just takes me a little extra time to stand up and then I’m fine.” While she spoke, she put the sock and shoes on. She handed her big fluffy pink slippers to me and, true to her word, she was able to walk to the restroom. When she came back out, she was wearing the clothes I had brought her, and was beaming. She had folded her terrycloth bathrobe around her flannel night gown, and draped the whole thing over her arm so it looked more like a beach towel.

 

I remembered an extra pair of sunglasses in the console, and handed them to her as she walked up.  Dorothy put them on and “struck a pose”, asking, “How do I look?”

 

I said “Ready for a vacation, and about ten years younger”. She got back into the car and by the time I sat in the car, she had already buckled her seatbelt. Then Dorothy said “I AM ready for a vacation, and I FEEL younger, too.  I’ve been waiting for this for a long time.” Then she turned to me and burst out “Well, let’s go!”

 

We both laughed as I started the car and I asked “Where to?”

 

She said “Let’s head out of Newberg. Just head for Highway 240, then toward the coast. I’ll let you know where to turn before it’s too late”

 

I turned where ever Dorothy told me to, never paying much attention to where we were. As the day warmed up, we appreciated the coolness of the shade of the trees and overgrown blackberries along the road. Finally we turned onto a driveway, and she placed a hand on my arm, and whispered to me to go slow. I glanced at her and saw the caution in her eyes. I rolled nearly to a stop.

 

“No, no, go on. I don’t think there’s any one here. Look it’s all boarded up”, she said, pointing to the house.  Her voice was low and quiet, partly of relief and partly of disappointment. I drove forward, slowly. I glanced at Dorothy and she gestured toward a small outbuilding with an enormous camellia growing over it. The camellia shaded the building and the drive leading up to it.

 

“Stop here”, she said, as she unbuckled her seatbelt. “The doors open outward”. Then she got out of the car and walked up to the doors. The wood was worn out. The paint had been weathered away long ago. There were still flecks and streaks of it left, mostly up under the eaves of the roof, where the sun and rain had not reached. The coolness of the shade was a relief from the hot sun, growing hotter.  I got out of the car, and watched Dorothy.

 

She said “This used to be my garage”, as she opened the doors. “And it still IS!” She beamed. “Look at you! You’re still here!” She waved wildly at me to come in.  Her face was radiant and her smile was broad, even enormous.

I looked from her face to the car inside her garage. It looked a lot like a Volkswagen Rabbit; one of the earliest years. She leaned forward and blew on the car. A cloud of brown dust kicked up, revealing that the “brown” car was, in fact, white. “Goodness! When was the last time you had a bath?”  Dorothy laughed and waved at the dust, as if to shoo it away. She turned to me and said “May I introduce to you a good friend and the conveyance of all my best adventures. Rabbit, meet my young friend Lavonne. Lavonne, meet one of my oldest and dearest friends, Rabbit. Dorothy then turned to the shelves that ran the full length of the garage, and lifted a pack of cards, still in their box, and took the key that had been sitting under them. On her face was a look of hope, or worry, or both, as she unlocked the door and got into the car. She tried the ignition, and, nothing.

 

Disappointment washed over her face, and I asked her “Do you think maybe the battery just needs to recharge?”  The bright hope returned to her face.

 

“Yes! The poor old thing has been parked for years! That must be it!” She walked to the back of the car and pulled out a jumper cable, and returned to open the hood of the Rabbit. She handed me one end of the cable, and I hooked the clamps onto my car battery. Dorothy clamped the other end to the Rabbit’s battery, and I started my car. Dorothy got into her car and waited a moment, and turned the key. The engine turned over, but too slowly to start. Dorothy’s face beamed as she exclaimed “Well, that’s encouraging!” She fairly hopped out of her car and almost skipped to my car. She said “We’ll just give this a few minutes and try again!  I’m so excited! Oh, after all these years! I mean, almost ten years! It’s good to get out! It’s good to get home! It’s good to see Rabbit again!” Dorothy laughed, and I laughed with her.

 

After a few moments, she said “We should give Rabbit a proper bath. Let me try to start him again, and then I’ll get some things ready”. She got back into the car and after a hopeful grimace to me, turned the key. The Rabbit turned over and “ahem”-ed briefly, and ran. Dorothy’s grin was ear-to-ear. I thought I also caught a brief look of mischief on her face. She sat in the car and clapped her hands, giddy as a child on Christmas morning.  Then she took a deep breath, and let it out again in a long sigh of relief, and turned the ignition off.

 

Dorothy asked what time it was. It was noon. “Oh! She said. We should go to town and get something to eat! But I really don’t want to leave Rabbit here, not yet”, she started.

 

I interrupted and said “I’ve brought a lunch”, She watched me walk to the back of my car and let an “Oh, goody!” escape as I lifted the cooler out.  She pulled a wooden folding chair out of the back of the Rabbit and said “It helps to be prepared”. She walked to the space between the two cars. As she set the chair down, it opened.  She said “There’s another one in the back. Could you get it?  I set the cooler down in front of her chair, walked to the back of Dorothy’s Rabbit and looked.  There was a folding table with a top the size of a cafeteria tray, but no chair. I brought the table back and opened it as I set it down. “I didn’t see another chair, but this was there. I could just sit on the cooler”, I offered. I opened the cooler and lifted the canvas bag out and set it on the table. As I sat down, I noticed that Dorothy looked perplexed.

 

Dorothy noticed me looking at her and said “Well, I remember that table, but I wonder where the other chair went?”

 

I set the lunch out on the table; the bread, salami, bananas, and a row of four strawberry soda pops. I tucked the canvas bag under the table. I pulled on a slice of salami and set it on a slice of bread and began munching. Dorothy broke out of her reverie and also put a slice of salami with some bread and took a bite.

 

“Oh! This is so good! Much better than lasagna flavored mush!” As we ate, she described how, since she didn’t speak at the “home”, they assumed that she didn’t or wouldn’t eat on her own, so the pulverized her meals and spoon fed her. She also described how she would wake up around two in the morning and walk up and down the halls, looking at the pictures on the walls, ducking around corners if she heard foot steps and sneaking back to her bed, and tucking the covers around her legs again before laying down. “And I haven’t been caught yet” she flourished, with a look of mischief on her face.

 

“You seem to be good at managing your mischief”, I said.

 

“Mischief? Dorothy asked, “Why, what ever do you mean?”

 

“I mean, when you talk about not getting caught at the home, and even when you started the car”, I paused, curious to see her reaction.

 

Dorothy looked at the car, and then at me. Then she stood up and said “Let’s give this car a bath. I’ll tell you the story.”

Saturday, September 19, 2020

Dusting it off...

I think I'm not the only one; I feel like I just barely get my feet under me and "life" knocks them out from under me again. I think I'm going to start doing something good for my self or helpful to some one else, and then I fall flat on my behind. Flat. On. My. Behind. 

This is my 3rd draft of today's blog. I think I'll change to title from "Dusting it off" to "perfect timing"... still not sure. 

The other drafts were getting long winded with no end in sight. I was droning on about where I'd been & what I'd been doing... I've got another idea. Let's pretend this is a conversation. 

We'll start with small talk and move outward and around.

I'm fixing pre-seasoned chicken for dinner, and a sort of celery soup. 

I'll ask you two questions;
1) What are you having for dinner (yes, you can say "none of your beeswax")?
2) What time do you usually have dinner?

I'd like to answer Q 2); "after dark, usually." I'm sure it has something to do with our lack of sense of time.

Thursday, August 22, 2019

It's hard to believe; a new post on my blog



     When I decided to start a blog, I wasn't really sold on the idea that I'd be good at it.  I knew I'd not be consistent, at first, but thought I could grow into that, eventually.  So much has happened since then, and yet, not really a whole lot has happened.  Life throws its curve-balls, and we swing at some and duck the rest.

     I still love to garden & still have many of the trees I'd been potting & re-potting...but we've moved to a place where I have been able to plant a few hundred of them, and have "only" less than one hundred to go.  If only life was as simple as that. I don't know any one whose life is that simple.  I think I'm learning that we humans tend to make things that ought to be simple, more complicated than necessary, and so we don't have the energy for things that are more complex, but we want them to be simple.

     I've attempted to write a book.  It would be my second, but I never even finished the plot for my first one.  I still intend to write the "second" one.  Maybe after I do that, I'll circle back around to the "first" one.  Don't hold your breath.  Just remember how long ago I'd last posted on my blog.

     And then laugh with me.  Let's laugh together at life & our follies & then help each other up from the floor and decide; "What are we going to DO about it?"

     And, maybe, I'll meet you here next week.

   

Monday, October 15, 2012

you're a tree hugger??

     It has been a year and a half since my last blog??...I guess I've been busy. the only reason I remembered I HAD a blog, is because a friend recently commented on my previous one...where would I be with out my friends? :) 
     So, literally, I am a tree hugger; I hug the trees to get them out of their old pot & into their new, roomier pots, with new soil to insulate the roots that have been growing all winter, so the heat of the summer doesn't cook them. Also, the trees really appreciate to leg room....you know....
     This year, though, my trees did not get their "new roomier accommodations" . Instead, Deryk found for me, through Craig's list, quite near a literal ton of nursery pots, for  free..."must take them all" sort of a deal...& with the help of three sturdy offspring, we loaded them up in about 3 days. It took another week or two to get them packed into large pallet boxes for storage...but we did it. Deryk, that husband of mine...stacked those pallets & "weather proofed" them against approximately one winter of rain & perhaps snow. He's a keeper...
     With the nursery pots came several flats of plants the owner of the nursery urged onto me..."look-look-look; see, these will spring right back once they get enough water"....etc...well, they did spring right back, & they are lovely. I am going to pot them up next Saturday at The Market, in my new spot, where I will be crafting my heart out, gardening on a small scale, selling my trees & plants, nearly every Saturday until I die or they drag me away kicking & screaming...(well, I hope not the latter)
     *sigh* I'd love to sit here & compose into the twilight hours...but I really should make sure the kids are finishing their homework, eating dinner, getting ready for bed...I really should.